pike

born in  a merger they wanted you to become a major.what time is it? 4:10 i said. the last word you ever uttered. in a deep sleep i fell. the angle of death was passing. our song  was playing i was fast taken. it bypassed me and came to you. i still want to be on the Forbes magazine smiling next to opra and the queen.
i asked why you of all people.but who would i have wished to be taken in your place? we all retreated to solitude. keeping memories to selves.

the Major seemed to be missing, at that point no decision good enough as to the way forward.the cord i could cut but i took too long. guilt of being there and doing nothing. seeing daddy  cry tore heart apart.

the beauty of life faded desires of the heart too. could i walk head high again, could conscience be clear, free and futuristic ;clear the last image of thy .

the master ,a father and friend. self control no drugs no bad company the up keep of good morals. how appropriate could they have been. casting problems away. tossing wine and spirits.

talking was not an option it neither is. trust is something i have lost. the people that are ment to figure model turn against. who is it that you talk to?
and if you talk then what? is sanity restored? is life brought back? is it not stigma that we put upon self? is self pity not enough?

today we cry tomorrow is another day.we smile and laugh deep down we cry. yet again we have life what more could you ask for??? but how to live from there. what to smile about. hypocrisy ,double personality living someone's life. who is living in thy's? what recognition  do we have of self.

dress well eat well do no evil' see no evil, hear no evil.perfect life  thought. but not a day without anger, a week without a tear. nor  a month without a heart break .still a perfect life???deep rooted in success but no access to soul perspect .